Well mistakes make us who we are. Or something to that effect. Sometimes people come into our lives as a lesson. To help us grow into who we are today. She was simply the person who showed you you were an awful person. But look at you now. You would have never known you'd end up this way. As for Rilith, she lead the whole opperation, and manipulated you into it. I'm still not sure why she got punished WAY less than you did.